I took some pictures of myself today, I look horrible. It’s not a self-esteem thing, I normally like myself. I look so sad, a mess; Dark circles, no color on my skin, my hair is dry. I couldn’t even manage to fake a smile. What would be the point of that? The pictures are for me, no use in faking my mood. So after 45 shots, I gave up; it’s not going to work, for a while. I have to deal with that, I have to find other models and subjects to photograph. Move on.